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The Secret

May 11, 2014

He has made everything beautiful in its time” (Ecclesiastes 3: 11).

My mother and I stood on line at the pharmacy counter, in the back of an aging drugstore. An attempt had been made to modernize the cramped space by adding plastic privacy screens. These were positioned so close to one another any hope of privacy was immediately eliminated.

The heat was palpable. An overhead fluorescent fixture buzzed like an irritated insect. I glanced up and noticed a forlorn effort to embellish the area, by way of a basket of faded plastic flowers. The arrangement had clearly been intended as a table topper, but was instead suspended precariously from an exposed pipe. The entire display was coated with a heavy layer of dust, and tilted awkwardly askew.

I touched my mother’s sleeve, and pointed to the arrangement. She looked up and exclaimed, without irony, “Beautiful!”

I should have known better. My mother can see beauty everywhere in this worn and weary world of ours. She has walked with the Lord so long that she has acquired His point of view.

I want that. But for me faith has been more rational. Like Jacob, I wrestle with God. I question; I ponder. I grieve at the suffering of the world, and ask why.

Oh, I recognize the limitations of reason. That paradigm of logic, Thomas Aquinas, himself said, “Love takes up where knowledge leaves off.”

That perhaps is the key. Embracing the world. Suspending criticism, if not critical judgment.

My mother knows the secret.

My thanks go out to all those kind enough to pray for my mother during her latest health crisis.  Praise God.  He has given us more time with her.

Thank you again.

A.

READERS CAN FIND MY VIEWS ON ABUSE AND ABUSE-RELATED ISSUES AT ANNA WALDHERR A Voice Reclaimed, Surviving Child Abuse  http://www.avoicereclaimed.com

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